You may have read Dr. Rupe’s very brave, balanced post about home birth earlier this week. She wrote it in response to Jeff Goins’ challenge to write what we were most afraid to write and publish it. Since we share this writing space, I wanted to let her go first…and perhaps knowing she had done it made me feel just a little more brave.
Actually, my act of bravery will not be this post. I’ve never been afraid to write my deepest thoughts. No, my act of bravery was attending the Blissdom conference because what I’m most afraid of is relating to strangers face to face.
There. I said it.
Hello. My name is Jessica and I’m afraid of people.
Those who know me are scratching their heads right now. I have no problem relating to people I am comfortable with. Some might say I’m very personable, even funny at times.
But if you are a woman (especially) and I don’t know you, I’m terrified of introducing myself and making small talk.
What if she doesn’t like me? What if she thinks I’m dorky or boring? And for goodness sake, what if she thinks I look bad in this outfit?
Yup, these are the questions that plague my mind every time I meet someone new. So…you can imagine the turmoil going on inside my heart during a bloggers conference. 600+ fabulous women in one place – many of whom know each other already. It was like the first day at a new school. Thankfully I went along with a few great friends otherwise I would have wandered like the new kid in a crowded lunch room.
The women we had the privilege to connect with we’re so incredibly personable and warm. My only disappointment was the regular response we received to our blog niche (pronounced niche like quiche, not niche like b*!ch someone said this weekend),
Blogger: What do you blog about?
Me: We write about trying to conceive, pregnancy, postpartum and being a mom to little ones.
Blogger: Oh, cool. I’m way passed that stage of my life but good for you.
I shouldn’t be surprised. Not only is our blog a niche…it’s a niche niche. Christian pregnancy?! How niche can you get?
I don’t believe any of the gals we met meant anything negative. They were simply stating the facts. But it really got me thinking…
Are we not to be taken seriously as bloggers because we write so specifically? Will our community miss out on the wisdom of all those moms and bloggers who have retired their uterus?
Here is what I wish I would have said to those I met this weekend:
How amazing that your family is complete! Our passion is to minister to women who are still in the process of building their family – some actually fighting infertility and loss to establish theirs. We’d love for you to join our community so you can contribute your experience and wisdom to the conversation.
We want this community to cross seasonal, generational and preferential barriers. Our common denominator is faith and motherhood – whether you are already there or just beginning your journey to get there (and that goes for faith and motherhood).
I love the healthy, balanced conversation that happened this week about home birth. We want to keep discussing those topics that moms and moms-to-be are dealing with in a grace-based forum that ultimately encourages women to seek the Lord for their answers.
Well, now you know my heart for this community. I’m not sure I’ve ever shared it like this here. I wish I would have had the courage to really share what we are about at Blissdom. I suppose that’s why I write. I need a day or so to process my thoughts. I’m no good on the fly. But I’m sure I’ll have the opportunity to open up next year when I return. Because I will return. Because it was awesome! And I will do everything I can this year to grow so that I am a stronger, braver woman when meeting fabulous, new faces.
Now it’s your turn.
Tell us something about you or something you’d like to see in this community?
I want to be in relationship with our readers. Because I’m better with deep than I am with casual.